Well, I made it through the weekend. In retrospect I really don't know how I did. I have just been keeping busy, mainly just going through the motions of it all. At times I even smiled or laughed without the world ending, but still there is a deep feeling of sadness I carry in my heart. Now I just need to get through the week. Unfortunately, my OB/GYN is out of town (perfect timing, right?), so I now have to wait until sometime next week to find out what he learns (if anything) from the fertility specialist he is consulting with. I am anxiously awaiting that call but honestly, I don't expect anything good to come from it. I have already decided that if this is the case I will be seeking the opinion of another OB/GYN before making the leap to a fertility specialist. I just wish I didn't have to sit wringing my hands for a week waiting for information, but I guess that's just the way it is.

What would you ladies do, would you seek a 2nd opinion, first, or go straight to the RE? Please understand that though the prospect is terrifying to me, I am not against seeing a specialist if that's what ultimately needs to be done. Obviously, I will do anything necessary to get our baby. That said, I still feel there is more that could be done before taking such a leap to more drastic measures. Fellow PCOS-ers I need your input here. My doctor said I am not eligible for Clomid because my periods have failed to regulate on Met alone (I can sometimes go 3-4 months or longer without a period). As of now I haven't had a period since late July and am not pregnant. Dr. C.'s opinion is that this being the case, Clomid would do little good. My question is, why couldn't I be given progresterone or provera to force my period, and then take clomid on CD 5-9 or however it works? I have a friend with PCOS and this method worked for her. She now has a 2-year-old son. Question to all you PCOS ladies: is this what worked for you or did your doc try a different method?

I should also add that I was only Met for about 3 months. Doesn't it usually take a lot longer in most cases to yield any results? I am currently not on it because Dr. C told me to stop if it was making me so miserable, but I would certainly be willing to tough it out if there was a chance I could see better results down the line. It just so frustrating that my lack of periods are what is causing all this trouble for me. When I know there has got to be something that can regulate them besides BCP. Sure, BCP may work if you have no desire to get pregnant, but when you are TTC that is a no-go. And I already wasted 3 months of my life on those darn things (not to mention the 5 years I spent preventing pregnancy. Now the idea of that is laughable to me)!

If it doesn't go my way when I hear from Dr. C next week, I am going to push the provera-clomid combo. I am hoping the RE he is consulting with will suggest it, but I have learned the hard way it's best to have zero expectations.. I seem to recall also that this is what worked for my mom to help her get pregnant. If he is still uncooperative, then as much as I hate to do it because I love Dr. C., I will seek a second opinion.

Please feel free to weigh in  on my situation ladies as I am feeling really lost and directionless right now. I need to know that there is still hope out there.  Hope you all have a great week.

Thanks.

~ Kellie