Sometimes no news ISN'T good news....

Well, it has been over 2 weeks now and still no word form my doctor. At this point I am really stating to lose patience (and that's putting it mildly). I called first thing this morning and told the nurse to pleeeease have him call me asap. I know he has been out of town, and that he has a life outside of caring for his patients, but for me this is torture! To him this may not be a big deal, he is just doing his job; but to me and my husband it is everything! I hate waiting in limbo feeling hopeless, helpless, and lost. I just want answers, whatever those answers may be so that we can move forward in whatever direction we need to pursue next. If that means getting a second opinion from another OB or going straight to the RE, so be it. I am just fed up with sitting here doing nothing while time ticks by. DH and I are still remaining hopeful that by some miracle this may be our month, but just in case it's not we need a path ahead. I know I'll feel much less anxious with a plan in place. I need to feel like I'm doing something. I need to be proactive! That's how I deal; that's what gets me through. There is a fork in the road and I desperately need an outline of where to turn next. Help! I can't sit here and feel helpless anymore. DH and I will do anything to get our child, we just need to know what that next thing is. I will do everything in my power to give my husband our son (I say this because I am sure in my heart we are going to blessed with a boy), I just need to know what's ahead so I can begin to plan and prepare for the next step in our journey. Not an easy thing to do when you're unsure of what's coming and things are so up in the air. So hopefully my phone call will yield some results by the end of the day. All I know is, I am done being Mrs. Nice Guy about it. I love Dr. C and have been with him for a very long time. We usually have a good rapport but right now I feel I am being treated very unprofessionally. So I would hate to do it but I will go to another OB if that's what's needed. Hopefully it will not come to that though because I really do not want to start over with another doctor after what I've already been through in the past year and a half. I know it could be much worse, and I pray it doesn't get worse, but believe me I have already had my share of heartache.

On another note, there must have been a baby convention in town this weekend because they were everywhere! Seriously,  everywhere I turned it was babies, babies, babies. It's like I could not escape them no matter how hard I tried! At Target: Babies. Grocery store: Babies. DH and I attended his brother's wedding this weekend and there were lots of babies there, too! I swear, sometimes I'm convinced the universe is conspiring against me. I know it's my baby-brain mentality making my hyper-aware but still, it's not pleasant! Also, thanks to Facebook's new subscribe feature I can now 'unsubscribe' to all pregnant women on FB. This is good because it allows me to keep my page (because I am too much of a chicken to actually delete my account), while not being subjected to the rants of pregnant women all day, thereby fueling my total emotional breakdown.

And while we're at it, could someone pleeeease tell me why my complexion suddenly resembles that of a teenager?! For the past few weeks now my face has been horribly broke out with no end in sight! I am now scared to look in the mirror because I swear every morning when I wake up there is a new pimple! I just don't know what to do. AF hasn't showed since the end of July, so I'm quite sure it has something to do with my hormones being completely out-of-whack!

Well, I think that's all for now. I will update on the sitch as soon as more info becomes available (if anyone actually cares. lol). Until then hope you are all having a good Monday and a great week; it is starting out as a rainy one here. Kinda fits my mood I suppose. lol. Take care, ladies.

~ Kellie